Frustrated

Frustrated I sit and berate myself
Angry at my ineptitude
at the lack of control
my emotions display

the mask cracked
it bared my hurt
how dare I let that show

I should have shored it up better
this wall around my heart

I should have seen it coming
and cemented the crack
before it started

shaking with the rage of
impotent emotion
I don’t understand

I know I won’t change it
so why let it bother me
I want a little bubble
to close myself up in and cry

contact with emotion
wrecking havoc
on my soul

mindless despair
with empty solutions

Frustrated I sit and stare

© 1998 Moonfyre