Fragments

Ultimately broken inadvertently I discover
Completion within pieces of self
if allowed there to stay
perhaps I could soothe and tame the ache
Already weary I long for nothing more

Unwillingly Pressed toward self-unity,
attempting supposed-necessary wholeness
Scattered fragments drift together
Using up my last bit of hope ...
dare I reveal myself to those cruel eyes?
alas I only find despair

Wreckage of my humanity cries in terror
colliding one piece against the other
‘til no piece remains distinguishable
simple dust remaining to float aimlessly
within a sea of pain

Then comes the silence

.... so chilling in its absolutism
taking on an edge of fright
where solace was once found
recoiling with vast disillusionment
I know I’ve lost the fight

Seemingly in ruins, astonished I discover
Fragile happiness within these particles of self
If only I could there remain
Knowing there is nothing left to give
if forced to face the hurt again,
there is naught I fear more

then to my bewilderment you blew in
and saw that which was truly me
in your gentle way encouraged me to grow
by sharing your own brokenness
you soothed the edges of my soul

with great hesitation accompanying my fear
I take that one last leap
gather the bits of self left to me
and find within no need to be “whole”
no forced reconciliation to grind
To fit into a mold

Completion is once more found
within these pieces of self
each fragment balanced, this time not alone
I shiver, this time I dare believe
it will not strike me down.

© 2000 Moonfyre